Oh failures, how bittersweet they are. You never truly set out to fail on purpose. However, we sometimes self-sabotage until it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy. I truly believe that.
Earlier this year, I struggled to find the drive to move forward with this project. Life has been a steady flow of ups and downs lately. Consequently, I was naive to assume the hardest parts of my life were behind me. Leaving a decade-long marriage was incredibly difficult. Furthermore, the years that follow are just as challenging. Trying to find yourself again is a constant, daily battle.
Using Self-Portraits as a Flashlight
On certain days, I am still not sure of my direction. It is often hard to remember my true identity. Therefore, I use self-portraits as a flashlight. These images offer a way to pause and see myself clearly. Additionally, they help me decide what I want to document. Photography provides a little light into my soul during dark moments.
I could not complete this specific set of images in February. Nevertheless, I know I can always try again. Failure is always an option in this space. In fact, it is an essential part of the creative process.
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In conclusion, I hope I never stop trying. These images show that when I show up for myself, great things happen. They are tiny keepsakes of a season of grieving and growing
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