Last days of summer are seriously cherished around here. Chicago’s weather is volatile at best. Soon comes those deep winter days , where the sun sets a four pm and we get to stay indoors all the time , sadly. On this day we headed to the Taste of Melrose Pk . We rode cool rides and ate lots of tacos. We shopped around, well window shopped really. Little miss Zoe fell in love with a baby doll , that I obviously was not going to buy, I mean we have like… 20 babies. I wish I would have photographed the fit she threw, because it was a big one. No one was going to separate her from her long lost baby doll , she was in tears. I was slowly pulling her away …when Abuelo (my dad) stepped in as most grandfathers do, and bought it for her. The lady from the shop wanted twenty dollars, and of course my dad bartered with her down to ten, I believe. Zoe pushed that dolly out of there in spite of my objections. She was as happy as can be.
AT HOME SESSION – Lunde family
Love, so much love. You know when you walk into a home and you immediately feel comfortable, maybe its the warm inviting decor, or maybe it’s the amazing heart and souls occupying the home. I’m thinking it’s the latter This family is so special to me, The mama is a photographer as well, and she trusted me to be able to take these for her. We are slowly becoming such great friends, and our kids love being together. So I knew it would be an effortless session for me, and it was. I did very minimal posing and just shot them being them. It might be one of my favorite sessions to date.
P & baby O are just as sweet as they photograph. I look forward to seeing them grow .
Change is scary. Then again, change is good. In the past recent months, we have moved to a new place and we are still getting used to it. Although we do miss our old neighborhood,Our new one is jammed packed with tiny families like ours. Soon Lucas will begin Prek, which will bring more change onto our routines. I want to add that I am a self- proclaimed change queen. I attended over 10 schools in my lifetime. Considering most kids go to 4 or 5 schools. That a whole bunch of new.
This past month Lucas also turned 4. He is considered a child now (sadly to my mama heart) . I’m not sure who made these guidelines up ; Baby, toddler, child, preteen…ect. They are kinda silly, and of course he is still my baby, but there is no denying he is loosing all of the things that made him my once chubby baby. For one, He has really embraced his role of big brother.He adores that girl to death. He is taller and much faster, super strong. Also that brain is just insanely filled with his own ideas. He has opinions and judgments on activities. Its just a crazy explosion of learning. I know he is resilient, and he will embrace his new environment like a champ.
Two of you.
Just another day in June.Out and about with these two. Playing together will come later, I’m assuming. For now they both fight over that one object that a minute ago no one thought about and now is a gold trophy. I can’t wait to see the friendship build. Lucas is already a crazy protector. Zoe, only cares about copying everything he does. Oh, I so believe in my heart Lucas was born to be a big brother. I am happy for this crazy girl that we brought into his life.
Yesterday I photographed my daughters struggle to learn something. It was so adorable seeing her trying different ways to do this single , simple task. She gave up multiple times, then saw the pull thingy “Hippo” ( I have no idea what a toy like this would be called) and kept trying. She was relentless. It’s always fun seeing your children try new things. What is not fun is seeing them fail. The disappointment is disarming, and it makes you want to run and fix it. I did however remind myself of all she is learning while failing and how fixing it while it may mend my heart, will only hurt her in the grand scheme of things.
That is what I keep telling myself in this photography journey. In the past I have wanted to just “ARRIVE”!! what ever that means. I mean who the hell wants to fail. I certainly don’t. I have wanted to learn who I am in this photography community. Find my niche, style and voice. I tend to forget that it all takes a bunch of time. For now I will keep trying and failing and discovering who I am and what I love to photograph.
Its bananas to me how many lessons my children have inadvertently taught me. If you fail, get up and try, try again.
E A R L Y L I G H T / APRIL 2015
My thoughts are heavy on my mind right before bed.
These days I fall asleep at 12PM and wake up whenever these two decide to take on the day.
That is what early light is about.
Those just waking moments, where you can still hear the birds.
The stillness that can be beautiful and found everywhere you see.
To my little boy
Your heart is so big.
and right now, you are having a tough time with all of the feelings and emotions inside it.
This month you are learning about sharing more.
the concept is completely lost on you, most of the time
then, I see your sweetness shine in
wanting nothing but to please that little girl.
Thank you for your patience, as mommy is mainly occupied with her.
To my little girl
You, my dear.
Are something to be admired.
Just two months ago was your 1st birthday and already,
you are doing the stuff toddlers dream of.
Your wit and laughter is so incredibly awesome.
I can’t wait for you to soak in the beauty of summer as a walking big girl.
To continue the EARLY LIGHT blog circle. Check out the lovely Sand Lee Fales (WILD PRAIRIE PHOTOGRAPHY)
Zoe, almost one pt-deux
Yeah, so of course after submitting her to almost an hour of indoor photographs we had to go outdoors.
Remember that winter weather break we got in late January, I believe? Well it was sunny and gloriously warm. The snow on the ground just topped off the beauty.
(also, in this post zoe changes colors) ha!google color cast. Sorrounded by white snow and greens will do that to a girl 🙂
Zoe, almost one.
You can kiss babyhood goodbye, after one. It is like one day she woke up and knew how to do it all interdependently. I am taking it all in, since she is my last baby. I am cherishing this crooked smile which she has now filled up, no longer does it look like this, missing gap. The next time i see a gap, god willing I will be raising a sweet young child. It’s incredibly bittersweet.